honey, honey

On Saturday we went to the cinema to watch Thor 2. I'm getting a strong feeling that this gif clarifies exactly all my feelings about this movie:

I don't mean I'm in any means disappointed, because it's rather the opposite: I feel geeky-pleased and OMG the fanservice scene was worth the headake given by 3D glasses. I just still am surprised of: first of all, all those Frigga feels, because I was not ready for them. I really was not. Secondly, how come Thor became so much more mature and intelligent than even in The Avengers? I don't say it's bad, it's awesome he got more artful, it's just the change is very rapid, IMO. 

Though, he is still not the most brainy chara in the story (we all know whose role is that), but I wonder what made him less heavy-handed throughout the movie, [SPOILERS ALERT] because for sure it was not the Frigga or Loki feels - I haven't seen him being much affected or destroyed by any of those. I mean he did came back to the problem-focused thinking quite quickly and I wonder was it because he is that awesome or because he hasn't believed Loki that much after all (like all the fangirls in the cinema).[/SPOILERS ALERT]

First snow came with cold wind yesterday and I see no "Winter is coming" memes on my tumblr dash, how come? Instead I can see all those weird pics like "Oh yeah we're such a happy couple cuddling in the snow with our obviously-not-warm blanket". Or "Let's cover all the trees in Christmas light because it's SO ROMANTIC" and "Omg white Christams is coming, I'm gonna sit in a thinking pose on my windowsill and drink tea and the cat will come to cuddle and omgit'sgonnabeowhsoawesomewintertime". 

Don't. First of all, I don't remember when we had a white christmas last time, especially in Poland? (I'm not counting the Easter, because it's not what is usually understood by White Christmas). Besides, snow is not fun. It's wet, cold, makes your feet freezing and your butt hurt if you slip on ice. Also, you usually can't spend winter mornings in bed, because you have to go to school or work and winter nights aren't much fun, even with the lights hanging on your trees, because it's more bright than ever, especially if you live in a city.

Since winter is a pain in the ass I feel like I need some more dirty pleasures, so I've finally tried watching American Horror Story Coven and "try" is a good word here. I'm not saying it's bad, it's a little cheesy, but let's be honest here, isn't Sleepy Hollow full of "a little cheesy" moments as well but I still enjoy it? So I've watched a few eps and I'm like, fine, no big discovery, nice to see Americans using the witch trials theme a lot lately, even if it's about a school for witches, but even the charas themselves brought an idea it's almost like a freaking Hogwart. So, at least I've tried it and now I can go and try another series I wanted to check out long time ago that is Orange Is The New Black. I woner if it's gonna be as entertaining as tumblr tells me.

Because it surely does look fun.

Also since I've got pretty much acquinted with all this MOOC shit I've decided to attend one more online course that is in marketing - I'm pretty impressed I didn't get this idea last year, because there's a plenty of MOOCs about introduction to economics, so maybe I would score better at Uni. However, I'm not sure if writing theory will help me at economics oriented Uni, though maybe introduction to marketing can stand for a little help, since I haven't had such lectures at my college. Still, it's a really hard MOOC to take O_O! I'm pretty sure it's still not that hard like that course on dinosaurs that we've applied to with my personal Will, but it is hard - yesterday it took me around 2h to get through all the Week 1 videos and taking notes was mindfucking. Though, the day after I really feel I understand more about what's going on at my Uni, so after all it wasn't a bad idea to try this one MOOC out.

Am I doing everything in order not to take responsibility for a panel at the nearest anime convention?

Meh.

that don't impress me much

There are days in which students just do not want to cooperate. It gets pretty complicated when you teach a language and there is no way in hell the lesson can get along without saying a word. Unfortunatelly, every little prince/princess has these days from time to time, so usually one tries to be at least understanding and elicit any work at all. But hey, damn you kid, sometimes I have bad days too, ya' know?

I mean, damn it, from time to time even I am less a Wonder Woman* and more Just A Woman. Like the day fucking kid didn't want to cooperate at all. I woke up in a very bad mood. As 90% of my groupmates I am probably "a little lost" when it comes to my thesis. Also, that day I felt very homesick - yes, homesick. I am 23 yo, grown up woman, and still from time to time I feel homesick - though, on the other hand, maybe it's just my brain telling me "Hey, after all you are not THAT heartless bitch if you can feel anything at all. Take that." On the top of that my weekend plans got smashed by the wrecking ball, and there was no Miley Cyrus on that, but a bunch of books saying "Come and write with us, two projects for next week."

So all in was I was really like: fuck this, fuck that...

And then, you get the bus/sit in front of the radio console/idk open fucking teacher's books and you just adjust the mood from "I need a hug/spaceship and a pumpkin latte" to "Come on! Let's do this!" The wonders of humanity you say? NO. It's just fucking motivation shit. At the point when students just do not want to cooperate and you are all like "Damn it, I can't do it. Chirst, what the fuck am I doing anyway?", take a deep breath and a pause.

Just need take some time for oneself, go shopping [buy nothing], do some freaking exercise [like clean the whole fucking apartment]. make a freaking good tiramisu, invest in yourself, take an online writing course, take a long bath, make a quiche. Yes, motherfucking quiche and make it SO good that it's better than any food porn u've seen ever.

At precious moments like that I kinda understand how Hannibal could be such a well psychiatrist and cook as well - oh lord, there's only a few better ways of relaxation than putting your heart and hands in the kitchen (yes there's a pun of a certain nature intended). So let me just sit in front of TV, watch some stupid movie like Spaceballs and sink my lips and mind in a delicious hot pumpkin chocolate, because that's what I apparently need.


*It doesn't mean I think superheroes should be flawless, because if they were, would it make us believe in them? I guess not.

maybe it's three cups of coffee, maybe its maybelline

Lately I keep coming back home in 40 minutes. 40 fucking minutes of me left alone with a mindfuck. I know it's not any first time kind of experience, blame damn Cracovian streets, but sometimes I think too much and it is hard trying to shut up all the ideas in my head. As Winona Ryder said, "If it fucking existed I'd thought of that."

I don't wanna sound like some freaking drama queen, though, being stuck in the last bus I thought, gosh, maybe I am actually a lucky person. I mean, usually Lady Irony of Life do not touch me, rather pokes me but it's not like a slap in a face. Usually not. So, in between of one kid in a baby carriage crying and a mother trying to make him wearing a hat, I thought, "Yeah, maybe I could be wrong with my ideas, but how is that even possible when they represent what I experienced at the moment of presenting them?" I already got tired of getting angry,so I shall sum up the talk I had lately with a meme.

Another 40 minutes, somehow almost always decorated with crying babies in the background, I've spent on the thing that I guess most of my friends experience in the buses, that is thinking about stories. Maybe it's a little bit like this quote I've found on tumblr lately that the mind is addicted to telling stories. If that's the case mine should get a detox long ago.

Anyway, I got rly involved in this one particular project I am working on and~ well, let's say, the problem is not the way I imagine the ending but the way I cannot think of a continuation. Of course, my pinata brain gives me a bunch of possibilities for the themes and problems, but what with the main charas? Should I change their background or what? It's not like I cannot start writing without a cont in my mind but I wish it could cover at least one more story. (I have three covers, they deserve at least some text :P).

Food! Yes that's what gets somewhere in between all those storm of ideas. That's interesting, now when I think of it, I never thought about my charas' fav food - I mean it's not the most important thing, but, ha!

Lately I have a good flow in the kitchen. Food planning gets quite important when you don't have much time for cooking during the day :P. Therefore, from time to time, my minds is traveling over the kitchen. Sometimes I think it's the only place when you cannot allow your thoughts getting you mindfucked, because it's too easy to screw sth up then. So, when I already get to the kitchen, magic happens, hoho. Sadly, mostly the vegetarian magic, but I'm proud of my latest invention. Just look at this awesome pepper-pumpkin soup with tamagoyaki and a bread roll with shallot-garlic butter! Perfection obtained makes the mind find its ease.